I live, I live!

[puddingcat]

Um, just. I guess this'll show e how many of you have removed me from flists in fits of disgust or "who was she, again?".

Life Sucks. My depression as been accelerating onwards & upwards since early 2013, and then Mum died relatively suddenly on November 29th. What everyone had thought was virus-induced labyrinthitis turned out to be metastases in her brain & spinal fluid, and she deteriorated rapidly after going into hospital.

I'm currently signed off work (for 2 weeks, though the thought of returning makes me go cold as that's another Huge Area of Misery) so Im focussing on the 2 things that make getting up in the morning worthwhile; archery (though I'm in a slump due to Mum-related not shooting for 2 months, and Being Coached, which always makes things worse before they get better), and the OU maths degree (in which I remain convinced that their 1st year courses are written for idiots; I'm good at maths, but not 90%-on-a-bad-day good).

So, there's me. Words are hard atm (which probably explains wy sums and arrows are my friends).

Comments

[indelicateink]

I'm so, so sorry for your loss. *long-distance hugs*

I missed you, and wondered how things were going. ♥ It's good to read you again.

[tucuxi.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

You live! I'm so sorry to hear about your mum and your depression getting worse. It sounds like your mum was a shock, to say the least: I don't really know what to say -- I'm just so sorry.

Re. depression, I don't know to what extent talking to people is a good or bad thing, but I'm online a lot on gchat as tucuxi1. And I've been struggling with depression since 2002/2003, so I can be an ear, or can suggest things, or can just, you know, offer you kitten pictures or ficlets or something else distracting. (Iruka-the-archer? I dunno!)

Go archery and the OU maths degree! Screw thinking about work if it makes you feel worse -- take some time for you to make you feel better.

[glitterboy1.livejournal.com]

'Life Sucks' barely covers so much. I knew about your Mum, but I'm sorry you're dealing with so many other things, as well. I'm sending you hugs, and also hoping that maybe the time off work gives you space that will help.

It's good to see you here. I'm just trying to get back here, myself - not completely successfully, yet, but I hope I'll see you again...

[rheasilvia.livejournal.com]

Oh no, I'm so sorry about your mom, and that you're going through such an extended rough patch.

I did miss you and wonder what was happening in your life, and I'm glad you checked in. I hope that you feel better soon!

[norfolkian.livejournal.com]

Still here, although I don't post much myself anymore.

I was so sorry to hear of the loss of your mum.

Good luck with the sums and arrows - I'm sure you will do fine at both! x

[new-kate.livejournal.com]

Off work you say? Sounds like a great time for a trip up North. Just saying.
Miss you, Math Archer.

[raggedhalo.livejournal.com]

Just wanted to say that I've read this, and I'm thinking of you, and I'm so sorry for your loss.

[whiskeylover.livejournal.com]

Shit!

Erm- *hugs*

Not sure what else to say. Thinking of you & all the best!

[motodraconis.livejournal.com]

I was just thinking about you the other day... I was showing chums the pics from the Silk and Steel photo shoot and you got a few compliments on how lovely you looked peeping out from behind those leaves.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/motodraconis/1360522153/in/set-72157601967130869

I'm very sorry to hear of your loss. Take care of yourself.

[xambrius.livejournal.com]

<hug>

--
Tim Harris
The Seeker
Time Lord

[pink-weasel.livejournal.com]

Oh no, I'm so sorry to hear about your mum, she was ever so lovely.

Spending lots of time indulging in weapons and numbers sounds like a perfectly good thing to do. Can you get signed off for longer?

[scribblemoose]

*hugs tight* You're very much in my thoughts at the moment.

Enjoy the refuge sums and arrows provide, and keep in touch with us all when you can. *more hugs*

[claire-smith.livejournal.com]

Still here. Sorry that things are so difficult. xx

[moomin-puffin.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry for your loss, and the hard time you are having at the moment. I hope things start improving soon.