I always thought I'd be a grown up when I grew up

You're right. I must stop using age as a shorthand excuse. It's really more a case of too conservative,too poor and too well aware of what I would look like dressed in the kind of outfit I would really love to wear. Somehow the thought of an 18stone 58 year old in a black leather corset trimmed with violet lace, midnight blue slashed with sky blue long satin skirt, a vampire cloak in black with royal blue silk lining, knee high cowboy boots in purple and every large gothic ring you can imagine scares me and I wouldnt be the poor sods having to look at it!! (But secretly I would love to turn up at the library dressed like that for a day's work - it would scare them shitless!!)