I always thought I'd be a grown up when I grew up

Thank you for this. It's very difficult for those of us who have never really been down that black tunnel of despair to understand and to know what to do and say that is helpful. As someone who is miles away from you in age, experience and actual distance, there is probably little I can ever do or say that might possibly be helpful, even though I do care what happens to you. I remember how much i liked you when FK introduced us and on the few subsequent times we met, and being sad when you moved from Manchester as I had hoped to spend more time with someone I thought of as a new friend.I wish you the strength to carry on fighting and defeating your demons and a more positive future than you see for yourself. And I have never liked you for what you Do, only for who you ARE. Hugs, if you can accept them.